March 3, 2010

Winter-the theme for this blog! Snow, it's peaceful and beautiful and the air is so fresh after a good snow and the pleasure I get from seeing the dogs play in it is so warming to the heart. A cozy fire and a hot chocolate on a snowy day with your honey, it lasts a moment but then it's gone and the reality of winter sets in. It's been a long winter! We had 46" of snow this winter, very unusual. Unless I'm visiting it I don't like living in the snow, I am a FL girl you know! One snow was 17" and I was stuck in the house for a week. I can't drive in the snow, again a FL girl. I have discovered my post transplant depression just gets worse after football and before spring which in my dictionary is winter. I love fall though, leaves changing, football starts and the days are cooler, that's the perfect time of the year and then spring when the world comes alive again. I like the beginning and I like the end. The point is I feel like that about life. I grow in the spring, bask in the summer sun and revel in the fall but winter, nothing! I feel nothing!! I know that as I celebrate another year post transplant (8 on March 13) that time is critical and all I want to do is grow and bake and revel all the time! I was actually feeling good until after I went to FL for a week but I'm sick now. I start IV's tomorrow and I'm short of breath which is very scary once again. My lung function is significantly lower too. I know I am living on borrowed time and still grateful and totally looking forward to sunny warmer days and when the world comes alive again I hope I will too!!

Peace & Love, Amy